Kaishiro

STUDY BREAK

I only studies for 1 hour today. I woke up late cause I went to bed around 2 am and then started working at 11 am then ended the work at 12 pm.

I was supposed to work at 2:30 but i procrastinated it and kept listening to the audiobook I was listening,the book didn't relaxed me at all but made me nervous as the author was telling a trauma story from his childhood and I was getting jacked up listening to it.

I got scared for a few moments and my heart started racing as the story went on ,I thought about stopping the audiobook but my mind said to me If i want to overcome this heart racing i should listen to lots of audiobook like this and I kept listening ( horrible advice )

If somebody can't swim in the pool or run 6 miles you don't say to him that run 6 miles everyday non stop or keep swimming in pool and you will learn one day. There is a method that you can follow to conquer these fear and insecurities faster and better.

I should do the same for my fear of getting super anxious and heart racing fast as the situation becomes troublesome.

First I should build my self respect Only then I can take another step to overcome any of my insecurities.

My self respect will increase when I will

These are the things that will define me for the next 4 months so instead of thinking how I will overcome stupid pretensious fears I should be devoting my fucking time for myself.

Instead of listening to somebody else's fucking story I should be writing my own.

The breaking point for today was the lunch as I had good to nothing to watch or listen to while eating I became irritated and put all that energy into focusing on the audiobook and wasted all my time.

Mistakes to never repeat this week again

And the second problem that I am having is with breaks , How to take good study breaks and enjoy them ,how to make sure i don't get anxious after listening to some audiobook or social media?

I still feel like not looking at tech during my breaks and just laying in bed and relaxing is the best thing that I can do rest my ears,eyes ,and mind. And at lunch I will try to incorporate dragon ball super tomorrow I say 2 episodes are enough let's see.

Plan for tomorrow is :-

Total study time :

This time I have made the lunch break bigger and gave a big window of 4 hours from 4 pm to 8 pm for gym ,dinner , cleaning etc.

At last make sure you drink enough water cause if not you will be lazy and sleepy like you were today.

Get after it !!!